Check it out, pretty on par.
Leo
People who dress better than them
People with better cars than them
Being ignored
Being provoked to jealousy
Being too cold
Being too wet
Being forced to go to church
Being trapped inside on a sunny day
Being told to slow down
Being told they can’t flirt
January: Obama is elected and sworn in, giving his State of the Union. Goodness gracious, around here you would have thought slavery still existed. However, in January I felt exactly what he had hoped and inspired in so many, and that was in fact a feeling of hope and promise for the New Year.
February: A Valentine’s alone, but a very happy alone.
March: Spring Break with my beautiful sister and bestie in Vegas. We had a wonderful time and about this time I was relieved to have been accepted into a Counseling Program and succeed in classes that now in November I realize are not for me. I contemplated another piercing, but went against it.
April: School slows down, qualifiers start and I begin a terrible relationship with Cory, who made me feel awful about myself and others. He was and apparently is returning to addictions that at one point caused him to pick the flesh off of his own face he was so strung out. I can only hope that he finds some sort of comfort in his path.
May: Spent time with these two wonderful boys at nationals. The last time we would go out before Ted’s accident. We had a glorious time in New York and the kids and I had a blast. School was out, the senior’s graduated, I should have gone to more graduation parties but it was just too sad. I miss and love the seniors everyday, luckily, I get to see and talk with many of them.
June: Started talking to this boy for the first time since he broke my heart in college. It is interesting how fate plays a role in the world of love and loss. Going to his hometown for debate nationals was interesting and fun and in the process I regained what would become a very important friendship. I finally got an answer to so many questions I had about why we ended and all of the hatred finally left and understanding set in. Spent quality time in Alabama with Carly hanging out like old times.
July: Start talking to Kyle, the boy I thought I would marry. We spent hours talking and walking and generally goofing around. He is beautiful and difficult and everything I ever wanted. I came home and spent some time with my mother and had my pre-school mental breakdown as per usual.
August: School starts, speech makes me realize how difficult my year is going to be. I only sorta like the content but I really begin to learn how awesome my debaters are and how much I love that part of my job. Realized that Cory was a bigger asshole than I thought and that he almost ruined Kyle and I before we even started.
September: Spent Labor Day in Lincoln with friends and Kyle, one of the best most fun times I have ever had. Sadly, it was also one of the last times we hung out, before we stopped dating. I still to this day have no idea why we aren’t dating now, but that isn’t my decision.
October: Faded away without much of a change, mostly because I was spending my time trying to figure out why people thought it good to leave me with a 1 year old, my dad is an asshole and why the only boy I legitimately loved can’t make up his mind.
November: The countdown begins. I am applying for grad schools, my lesson plans are made and I am contemplating a move. I am just ready to be doing something that I completely love. I don’t want to continue feeling mediocre about the world I have created for myself. Instead I am working on being ridiculously happy.
December: Wonderful things will happen. I will make them.
All in all, there was much love and heartbreak in this one year. Many people came into my life, left their mark and went on their way. I can only hope that the upcoming year will bring just as much love and hope.
My mom keeps talking about how the food wasn’t much to come home for. She doesn’t seem to realize that I have never come home for the food. It has always been coming home for her.
Anyway this is us yesterday in Reindeer Ears at Michael’s.
The holiday season is a beautiful excuse to see everyone you didn’t like while you still lived at home, count the progression of children they have accumulated since you saw them last and finely tune your hide and go seek skills.
Thank you, world, for giving me friends like Lindsey…making Mondays bearable since 2002.
This definitely ranks pretty high on the “Most Epic Emails EVER” chart.
Sadly, my head contains this crap entirely too often. Luckily it just comes out in dream form. I don’t know what I would do if this was actually my daily life.
Oh and fun side note, I was reading this to my advanced debate kids (the ones who are useful) and they started cracking up in the middle of the first sentence and I thought Hmm, I’m funny but probably not that funny, I wonder why they are laughing, and I continued reading. When I finished one of the kids was in tears, I asked for an explanation and apparently they spent last night pricing Stormtrooper costumes for the next tournament and a Darth Vader costume for me. I promptly made a sign asking people to recruit girls to the program….
I can’t think of anything I want in the world more than a waffle.
I thought that I had delusioned the bruises from my incidence of grace, but today I saw them. All ten of them starting at my shoulder and ending at my calf. It looks like I got in a fight and is making me very sore. But, I suppose having proof that I really did fall is a good thing. I am still waiting to go to the doctor for my wrist but I am hoping the swelling will just go down!
I’ve been pondering what I want to say about the year as it comes to a close and I am really positive about the year and where I am, which surprises me. I am really excited about the stuff that is happening in life lately, but I will get back to that later. Tonight was fun, I hope I get an email from a certain boy!
LSFSNGLSLSDJGOJEGRHNFJ
ASIAN BABIES LOOK LIKE BEAR DOGS
Carly….
My mother is giving me a running commentary on the myspace Twilight videos….Oh lord.
Really, Dan and Vanessa. NO GO!
I went to Wichita to study today because I assumed that Bridget would stay home from work since she has been sick all week. I went to the bookstore and worked diligently reading psychosocial vs genetic contributions to the functioning of children for 3 hours. I decided I was hungry so I went to Buffalo Wild Wings to get some food before driving home. I went to the bar since I was alone and sat at the bar. I ordered a beer and leaned over to get a menu when the stool slipped out from under me and I feel flat on my back on the floor, hit my head on the floor and landed with the stool on top of me. Luckily the nice Chiefs fan behind me came to help me up. I have bruises on both of my elbows, my wrist is currently black and swollen, and my head hurts. Luckily for me the bar was completely filled with men my age watching football. My everything hurts :(
However, I had a very productive day until then!
